The other day I texted my husband and told him I felt like I was in a rut.
He asked me what kind of rut and told me to tell him more. I told him I didn’t know.
Because that’s typically the thing about a rut — it’s there, you’re in it, but you don’t know why, or what’s causing it, or even what’s going to make it better. You just know you’re there. And heck, sometimes it even takes a while to realize you’re there!I have a vision for my life, and dreams just like any other person does, and to be honest, they’re big dreams. Sometimes when I can’t see myself getting closer to those dreams or that vision, I get scared and worried that I’m not doing enough, or maybe I’m even doing the complete wrong things.
Enter tons of self-doubt and confusion:
“Is this even what I’m suppose to be doing?”
“Am I wasting my time?”
“WTF is the purpose of all of this?”
“How is this getting me closer to my dream?”
After a full 24 hours of questioning every decision I’ve ever made in my life I finally realize that some the best things that have happened to me have come from the smallest things I thought nothing of.
Like the day I was having lunch with my radio co-worker and he invited me to the set where he was hosting a TV show. And then how a few weeks later he was out of town and they asked me to fill in for him, and now how I’ve been working with them for almost 3 years now.
Like how I met my husband during a summer internship when I was 20 years old. And how I had been turned down by 3 other internships I applied for that summer, and how this internship was literally my last choice.
Like how during said internship my boss asked me “you like to talk. If I give you a microphone can you talk into it in front of people?” to which I thought, “I don’t see why not”, and how that eventually led to me pursuing a career in television.
Like how I randomly felt the need to write a status on Facebook about my relationship with God and how it changed my life, and how a girl I went to high school with Facebook messaged me saying I inspired her to read the bible and start a relationship with God.
Looking back on my life, each of these events have been so transforming to me. But as they were happening, I thought nothing of them. They were the little things that I unknowingly was choosing to be faithful to.
And then suddenly the reason for my rut became perfectly clear. I wasn’t being faithful in the little things. I was thinking, “why bother? there’s no way this is going to get me closer to my dream”. But as I just told you with TV station, and my internship, and the girl from high school, it’s those things that have impacted me the most, and given me the most direction and purpose.
Only after you’re faithful in the little things will you have the opportunity to be faithful in the larger things.
Maybe you’re really far away from your dreams, and most days you can’t see how you’re ever going to get there. This is my advice to you: do small things with great passion and great love, because those small things will lead you to other things, and those other things will lead you to more things, and one day, you might wakeup and realize all of your wildest dreams have come true. And I’m willing to bet when you look back on it, you’re going to find it was some of the little things you chose to be faithful in that got you there.
If you find yourself in a rut, I challenge you to ask yourself what little things you can be faithful in right this minute. Not in a day, or in a month, or when “you make it”, RIGHT NOW. You might not be able to see it now, but those little things are paving the way for the bigger things to come.